Voices

Panic Attack

The voice in my head says,

Anything can happen.

I will go insane,

I will die,

I will start screaming,

I will piss all over myself.

I try to tell myself that-that voice isn't real,

But it's hard,

The voice is very convincing.

I need to find a voice that is stronger,

One that is so rational,

That it will cancel the other one out.

Why does it take to believe,

That I am going to make it?

Whose voice is good enough?

Is it my own?

I write a note to myself,

Put it in m wallet,

And hope.