Decision - Sacrifice

Why is it so hard to make a decision and why is it that every decision, sacrifice always tagged along with it. It's so hard to make a decision because I don't want to lose or risk anything thing but yet I can never run away from that. No matter how fast I can run, even if I'm the fastest man alive but still I can never run away from my past, I can never run away from any problems nor can I run away from making any decision. Those thing will always catch up to me and no matter where I run or hide it will always find me.

There are a hell whole lot of problems, where can be solve because in every problems there will always be more than one way to solve it, But as I said just now, every decision leads to sacrificing something and I don't want to lose anything. I'm done with losing people who are important to me, I'm done losing things which values most to me. But I'm just a mere human with no power to do change or do anything. 

All I ever did was carrying the whole world or even the universe over my shoulder and I really hope that someone will carry it with me but I don't want anyone to get hurt. So why should I make a decision where someone will get hurt, and I will lose someone, I can just choose not to make any decision and just hurt myself instead. But maybe Choosing not to tell anything, to say anything, to decide anything is the best way because keeping it to myself is what I do best. Being selfish is what I do best and being selfish in this way might be the only way to prevent myself from losing more people and hurting more people who holds an important and special place in me.