[Pisanthrophobia]

Pinky Promise

I want to find the person who makes me feel like I found the piece of myself I never knew was missing. I want the nerves and all the good vibes associated with falling for someone new, and when I find that person I have so much love I want to give to her. I won’t be hesitant, I won’t try to be someone I’m not and I won’t try to impress her. I’ll just be me, because if she’s the right person that will be enough.

Once I find that person I want to give her all the love in my heart, despite any prior heartache I’ve felt. Because I want to give the right person everything I have in me, through the good and the bad. I’ll love you with all my heart and make sure you know you’re the only one I care about. I’ll make you feel safe and secure around me, like when we’re together the world can’t touch us. I’ll always keep your promises and won’t wager your trust. I want you to know you can always count on me to be there. I can always promise I’ll be the last person you see at night and the first person you see again in the morning, as long as that’s what you want.

I’ll learn your favorite meals and cook them for you when you’ve had a long day. I’ll make your morning coffee with mine and cook your eggs exactly the way you like them. I’ll become an expert at cooking your favorite dessert, just like your mom does, and if I’m not an expert I’ll try until I am. I’ll always smile like a fool when you make me happy. And I’ll always cheer you on when you’re trying to accomplish something you’ve been working for. I promise I’ll try to learn everything about you so I can do the little things every day to show you how much I care. I want to surprise you with little gifts because they made me think of you. I want to send you a funny YouTube clip because I know it would make you laugh.

I want to leave notes around that tell you why I love you or tell you what I want to do to you. I want to go out of my way to make you happy because your happiness is in fact my happiness. I’ll always offer you the last piece of something and kiss you good morning. I’ll always let you share my food with me and tell you “I love you” even when you already know. I’ll always ask you about your day and listen your response. I promise to always laugh at your jokes, even the ones that really aren’t funny. I’ll always try to make you laugh and pull you back in the rain to kiss me even though we’re both getting soaking wet.

I promise I’ll sit through your TV shows I hate and will try not to complain. I’ll make you soup when you’re sick and bring you medicine. I promise the adventures will never stop and we can continue to explore for as long as we live. I’ll never tell you there is a mountain too high for us to climb. I’ll always say yes to road trips and be okay with getting lost because you claimed you knew where you were going. I’ll love you through all the ups and downs, and bumpy roads we will face. I won’t expect you to be perfect because I know you’re not. I know you’ll screw up, I know you’ll do things that make me want to rip my hair out and I’m positive I’ll do those things to you, too.

I know we will fight and struggle through hard times because that’s life. But on top of all the struggles we face I promise I will always face them with you. I promise that I won’t quit on you when things get hard. I promise I’ll still work through things with you and won’t run away from our problems. I’ll face them head on with you by my side because that’s the only way things will get better. I’m not saying I’m perfect, but I promise I can be worth it because I’ll always give you all the love I have in my heart and love you unconditionally.

Music in me

Jumbeled Thoughts

Angel

Loving someone who's broken isn't easy,
Loving someone who had a wrecked past relationship isn't easy.
It's like losing parts of yourself just to love the person just so that they will love themselves better.
It's hard because she will keep remembering about it, the same thing will haunt her everyday.
She can't seem to love herself because she thinks that she's never good enough.

The days where she feels extremely down, upset and needy of someone, are the days whereby you should stand close to her, tell her how much you love her. Tell her how much she is worth.

On the days where she cries to bed, or maybe on your shoulders, hug her, comfort her, and assure her that everything will be alright. And that better days are coming, for her and for the both of you.

An when she feels like giving up on herself, tell her how much you need her, remind her how strong  she is to have been able to go through this far. And that you are actually able to get to know her and be together with her today because she was strong enough to stay in this selfish world.

And if her past suddenly hits her and when she starts having doubts on herself, tell her that it's all over, the past can't fix her, the past cannot be undone. The future awaits her, and for the both of you.
Only you can make positive choices to make it better.

But this can't go on forever, when it's those days where she smiles, and laughs, is the day where you should be happy. Happy because you knew that something or someone actually made her smile.
And behind that precious smile of hers, was your hard work and effort.

Indeed, loving someone who was emotionally unstable is tough, but if you truly  loved her, you'd know that it'll all be worth it in the end. It's all in you, whether you want her to be dumped in a pool of sadness or happiness.

Love is wonderful when it is with the right person.

Hold on